Exhaustion of positive energy

haha... have been expecting this would come soon. Finally, the energy instilled into me through hypnosis has been deleted through close contact with reality. Panic attack, fear and phobia, my colorful friends are back again one after the other, after taking a day off to celebrate new year eve. My logical mind has once again been forced to abandon me. Fortunately, the counter didn't reset to zero this time. This at least is the only thing that I feel a bit released. There is also another important learning experience. I need good discipline and confined environment to grow the inner energy, if not the energy will go depleting.

I look forward to the session tomorrow and see how I can progress next.