Expected Behaviour

I am glad to see that SH seemed happy with his bf. yep, I can't say otherwise, this is my feeling.

The gathering was nice and intimate. Food, rowdy talks, fun. The group also chatted about the incidence last year when I got my five stitches on the eye-brow. I was a bit embarrassed and didn't know how to react as the main cause of the incidence was around. SH obviously didn't know what was going on and not to mention knowing he was the reason for the five stitches. No one knows in the party and the secret should remain forever as it is.

So near yet so far, I miss you so much............

A reunion?

Singapore PLU's circle is really not that big. I came to know some of my friends who got quite close to SH a few months back. So I have been waiting for the day to meet each other again at one of the gathering. Wow, it will be tonight!! Don't know how it will be like since SH's bf will be there too and it will be the first time I get to meet them together.

Interesting, exciting.....

Second day of Chinese New Year - Re-Opening of Pandara Box?

haha... need some laughs to release a nervous sting inside me. Yep, I have just re-opened the facebook for the sole reason of missing him. The action is basically the result of a pending emotion after a conversation with Loy in Marine Parade.

Loy told me he read an article about "the 4 persons in life".
- The first person is the one you most love in life, but you will not be with him.
- The second person is the one who loves you the most, but you will not be with him.
- The third person is yourself. Only after one goes through the phases of "most love" and "most been love" that one will realize what one's needs.
- The fourth person is your life time partner. Only after one understands himself that he will be able to settle down with a life time partner, but this person is definitely not the first and second person in life.

I told Loy that SH is definitely the first person in my life as I still feel much affection when I think of him. The second person is the Thai boy whom I failed my promise with in Sydney. I know the third person now. And where is the fourth person of my love??

We shared quite a bit that night and I also told him where I am now. I still prefer to be attached, but there is already no urgency now. Will only take thing when it comes on relationship. I have too many things in the pipeline in life now. I want to fulfill things that meant to be done when I have the energy.

Wow... didn't know that Pandara Box can't even be peeked. I have been quite thinking of him after that day. I couldn't resist myself except went to my facebook and "see" how he is now. The feeling just kept rushing through when flipping his photo album. So good to know that he is still doing fine. I also decided to keep the facebook account open, not that I have the intention to re-connect with him nor I will be actively using the facebook account. I thought it's just the right time to let it be in the way it should be.

In fact, I just watched a Thai movie titled "The Love of Siam" and got attracted very much immediately. Actually, the first actor on the right looks very much like SH. Not sure if that is the reason I like the movie-:) But I think I like the person on the left more in term of character in the movie and his talent.

I am also happy that the re-opening of this blog is also dedicated to SH. My first person in life.