He was a doctor and not exactly my type. I first met him when a close friend introduced him to me at Studiobaker in 1997. A very casual ‘Hi’ and he was forgotten.
We met again a few months later when the same friend brought him along to a lunch appointment with me. He was interested and actively pursuing me. He invited me to his stage performance, friend’s gathering, swimming, jogging, etc. We had our good times, vacationing in a beach resort; making our dreams together in starry nights; listening to his poem reading, etc. I was captivated by his multi-talent in two weeks.
Unfortunately, that was about the length of the good times together before I broke the news to him that I had to leave for study in two months time for two years. We talked, we discussed and we argued. He didn’t want a long distant relationship. I had to let him go after a long toil as he was indecisive. I think I treated him too good that made him swaying. We struggled back and forth again to find a solution. Finally, I had to ask him to leave my car right away after the last long argument on a night when I sent him home and resolved not to meet again. This was because his indecisiveness could only harm both of us further and deeper.
I needed the following three years to neutralize him in me and required the next two years to realize that he not wanting a long distant relationship might just be an excuse. I think he wasn’t sure about the relationship after the two-week trial. I learned my first lesson about love.
We met again a few months later when the same friend brought him along to a lunch appointment with me. He was interested and actively pursuing me. He invited me to his stage performance, friend’s gathering, swimming, jogging, etc. We had our good times, vacationing in a beach resort; making our dreams together in starry nights; listening to his poem reading, etc. I was captivated by his multi-talent in two weeks.
Unfortunately, that was about the length of the good times together before I broke the news to him that I had to leave for study in two months time for two years. We talked, we discussed and we argued. He didn’t want a long distant relationship. I had to let him go after a long toil as he was indecisive. I think I treated him too good that made him swaying. We struggled back and forth again to find a solution. Finally, I had to ask him to leave my car right away after the last long argument on a night when I sent him home and resolved not to meet again. This was because his indecisiveness could only harm both of us further and deeper.
I needed the following three years to neutralize him in me and required the next two years to realize that he not wanting a long distant relationship might just be an excuse. I think he wasn’t sure about the relationship after the two-week trial. I learned my first lesson about love.
Thank you my first date. I will forever remember the poem you liked to read to me:
He was my North, my South, my East and my West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
-- by W.H Auden
Wrote on 25 Apr 05
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