人不为己，天殊地灭

T & A brought me to dinner at a new club in Sentosa called 15 degree. Noting that I was down, A tried to console me with all means. We talked about coming out to parents, old friends in the circle, closeted friends, issues in the circle, etc, etc. My mood was obviously not easily been lifted under the current level of fatigue from both physically and mental exertion. A went a bit high spirited determined to convince me that life was full of brightness. The above statement was suddenly burst out in order to spike up my life. He further explained that this was best way to protect oneself from getting hurt.

I appreciated his effort to motivate me the whole night, but this strong statement was a bit disturbing to me as it was the exact echo after my ex's belief. My ex had been through quite a difficult time with a few earlier relationships, therefore he finally arrived at the above conclusion for his life motto. I had been trying to prove and convince him otherwise while we were together, but I guess I didn't have sufficient virtue in me to change this ingrained belief of him. Nevertheless, I still tried my best to lead and show him that there was a better alternative till the last day when I was with him. I hope he has brought back something useful and positive for his future life. I will then feel better as the relationship at least has benefited him a bit.