Redefine happiness

An idea crossed my mind when I was taking my shower. A good person like me can't be so miserable. This is not right and this can't be the truth. I think there must be something wrong somewhere that I haven't got it right. And suddenly, an idea flashed. Maybe I got the definition of happiness all wrong from the beginning. I always thought happiness only comes when everything is right. Under such a definition, with my kind of life pattern, I don't think I can taste a slight of happiness in my life. Since I am always a non-conformist myself, what is so wrong to non-conform one more time. I decide to redefine the meaning of happiness.

Happiness comes when everything goes wrong. hmm.. that's more like it. I have been immersed in happiness since long ago under this new and appropriate definition. When everything goes wrong, that is the time when one has the opportunity to learn, to test oneself and to improve. The environment is conducive for spiritual growth. Am I not like that now? What is so bad about depression? I have been learning, testing myself and improving myself. And I am actually seeing myself growing, more and more each day. I had not grown like this in my life before. I resisted growing and yearned for growing for so long. And now I finally am able to grow. So isn't it a happy event to celebrate, to have a good laugh, to enjoy the genuine happiness arises from the growth.

I am a happy person and I wasn't aware of it until a while ago.