Wednesday, January 30, 2008

hey hey are you happy now?

hey hey are you happy now?

yep yep I am happy now.

Everything went wrong today, so I am happy now. I have the opportunity to manage my feeling and emotion. I have the opportunity to test myself. I have the opportunity to accept outcome that I don't like.

hey hey are you happy now?

yep yep I am happy now.

I still can't find a job that based me in sg, so I am happy now. well, I discover I can do thing that I'd never ever done before. I went so far out of my norm to ask for favor to consider me for a position. I am also enjoying testing and observing both myself and other parties on the interaction to negotiate for a position.

hey hey are you happy now.

yep yep I am happy now.

I am still deep in depression now, so I am happy now. I am forcing myself to change in many ways now in order to fight for survival. I have never done so many things that I have been wanting to do since childhood. To have more discipline, to be more positive, to reconcile with my old self, to be more happy.

hey hey are you happy now.

yep yep I am happy now.

I am still alone struggling my dear thought for H, so I am happy now. H just poked out in msn which I have blocked. I at least have someone dear whom I can miss very much. I am learning how to manage myself on the loss of the dearest thing in my life. I am also learning the fact that to love is not to own someone. To love is to see someone being happy and healthy.

hey hey are you happy now.

yep yep I am happy now.


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