Saturday, January 26, 2008

I am touched, moved and energised.

The first morning in SH was filled with hiccups.

The sleeping pattern hasn’t improved much but I seem to be adjusted to it now. After 4 rounds of inspirational music in between sleeps yesterday night, I finally woke up at 7am and was actually rather surprised of the late hour. After a glass of water, I sat down to meditate for about half an hour. While tidying bed and preparing for work, the power of the whole apartment suddenly tripped. The circuit breakers were all still in place, but I could smell burning from the panel. The technician was in my apartment in 10 minutes time after I called up the property management to seek help. The technician opened out the panel and confirmed that the main breaker was burned. As usual in SH, he took advantage to charge me a high price for changing a new breaker. I wasn't in any positive energy to bargain and my priority was to resume the power supply. He fixed the problem in the next 15 minutes and I was happy to see light again. I gave him a 100 yuan note, 22 yuan more than he asked for. He was quite hesitant to take it, but I told him it was alright as I was satisfied with his work. Good to know that the technician still had the human side. After washed up, I tried calling taxi to go to work but couldn't get any as it was cold and raining outside. I had no choice but to walk out in the cold to try my luck. Managed to get a taxi after ten minutes wait and got to the office at around 9.45am.

When I reached my desk, the DHL box sent by Y was there waiting for me. It had been there quietly for the past 3 weeks when I was struggling back home with my depression. After settled down, I opened the box and saw a beautiful green Y3 jacket with an envelope. My mood was lifted as I really loved the jacket. Thinking what Y would write in the note. I opened the envelope intending to read his note. I was touched when I saw a jade in a small nicely wrapped white cloth in the envelope with a note "J, To keep you warm and safe, Y - 15 Dec 07". I was touched, moved and energized.

When Y was here last month, I told him that I wanted a jade for myself. It is a long Chinese belief that jade will shield away all negative spirit and aggregate positive energy. Y has a good pair of eyes for art, so I requested him to help me to find one that suits me. We were shopping at famous jade shops along Nanjing Dong Road but couldn't find any satisfying. Y suggested that I shouldn't rush into buying one as buying jade required "缘份". I was mildly disappointed. When Y told me that he had sent me a jacket from HK, I didn't expect that a jade would come along with the parcel. It is really a beautiful piece of clear round jade with the exact color, shape and size that we were looking for that day. I quickly took down my gold chain in my neck and inserted the jade into it and put back on immediately. I feel warm, safe and happy now.

I immediately wrote Y a note thanking him for the kind gesture as I know clearly the gifts I received has already transcend its physical form and value. The kind thought and care of Y embedded with it has already provided me with much positive energy to re-kindle myself to move on positively.

In this current difficult period of my life, I am really grateful and fortunate to have many good supports from friends like Y, including WL, Han, Shifu, Shijie, LT. Without them, I don't think I can sustain myself till now to see light again.

Wrote on 16 Jan

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