A full rest

classical music
sound of rain
heart beat
call from fear

take a deep breath
heavy chest
difficult in breathing
tight chest

I pull
I block
I push
I shield
I wore out

green
bamboo dancing in the rain
red
heart bleeding in the self

grey
sky is colored
white
mind is lost

mood swing
up
up
up
down
down
down
up
up
down
down
up
down
up and down

rain pouring outside
tear pouring inside

silence the music
stop the rain
freeze the heart beat
block the fear

quiet
peace
calm
equanimity

I exist no more in this world